So I was all set to go to bed but sleep, as always, eludes me. So I did what I do when I can’t sleep, I write. And just as I finished, my daily horoscope e-mail was delivered to my phone. And it said, “Remember that it takes a great deal of energy to repress and bottle up your feelings, Gina. Without even realizing it you may be stuffing a great deal of emotion inside you while trying to ignore it. The truth is that expressing these feelings – whether they be anger, happiness, fear, or self-doubt – will be energizing and exteremely freeing. In general, the atmosphere around you will lighten up, and you will be able to interact more openly with others.”
So, seeing as how I can’t sleep, and I’ve been thinking, and clearly the universe thinks I should be expressing these thoughts, here they are.
What I wrote I’m going to title “Broken.”
Broken… and tired.
That feeling of being alone just never goes away, and I need to get rid of it, but I don’t know how.
Surrounded by people who care,
And yet disconnected from it all…
What is it I seek?
Will I ever find it?
Foot prints. I know where mine have been, but where are they going?
And when will I get there?
And what will I find there?
Will there be the quiet that I seek?
The peace of mind.
The stillness of my soul.
Will I find love in my heart?
Or will I get there and still be lost?