A question that has plagued me for many years.
I sought from a young age to define myself, trying to figure out who I was and fit into the various categories that were placed on me and the ones that I thought I had to place on myself. Today I know that I am indefinite and infinite. I am a work in progress and I do not want to limit myself to any one label. So I will just say that I am. And I enjoy doing many things.
I graduated from the University of Toronto with a BA in Fine Art and History. My daughter decided she wanted to be a part of my life during my last year of university. So when I graduated, I stayed at my then part-time job and became a full-time banker. It was the “safe” thing to do, finding a “reliable job,” and I enjoyed my time learning about finance and loved working with the people I met. I was good at it and so I kept at it. Art became something I did in my spare time as a hobby. Every so often I would create something for a friend or family member, but slowly it faded out of my life and “life” took over. I set out to become the best banker I could be
In 2012 I was in a car accident and I started having panic attacks. I started doodling again to take my mind off things. The doodling helped me stay calm and cope with my stresses. I met someone who is an artist who encouraged me to keep drawing and helped me reconnect with my talents. He motivates and inspires me to keep growing and exploring my art. I began drawing more often and have slowly embraced myself in the process… that part of myself that I had let go of because “there was no time” or “I had other “more important” things to do.” During the past few years I was reminded of just how much a part of my soul art was, and how much peace it brings me. I have finally decided to follow my passion and start creating again on a more permanent basis. For art has always inspired me and it is a part of me that I can no longer deny.
I embrace the divine spark within me and I shall use it to co-create. I will be the change that I want to see in this world and make it a better place, by being inspired and inspiring those around me to do the same. Together we can create a positive difference.